Long time update + Questions people asked me before.

Hi guys, Its been long since i updated this blog. Sigh i know i have not been blogging much and its because i am busy. What have i been busy with? Well simple. School. Nothing else. Okay maybe a thing or two? Or three or four? I don't know. All i know is that i  have been busy. 

Some might ask, Busy? Why are you gaming when you say you are busy?

Well lets get back to that question later. Busy cause i have been programing c#, java, python, and all those other shits. 

Why have i been gaming? 

Well simply to say its a way for me to get rid of my social life and stuffs. I could be anything in the gaming world. Per se, i could be playing as an archer class. Killing mobs and joining guilds, or maybe being a warrior class and leading everyone. Whichever it is, its heaven to me. 

Heaven to what? 

Well heaven to escape from reality. Reality of not fitting anywhere, Reality of not being able to make myself useful, Reality from relationships. Reality form everything. 

What relationship problems? I thought you already have a Girlfriend? 

Well no. It was an on and off relationship and i couldn't be bothered by her attitude. And quite a couple of days ago, she went and confronted someone. Lets name that someone X. And my ex-girlfriend, Y. Well Y went to confront X cause she wanted to be with me. I didn't want to be back with Y. And i don't really want to know what both of them talked to each other all i know that i am supposed to "fight" her brother in order to settle this out. The deal was that Whoever wins gets me. I didn't want to trouble anyone so i went alone( Although i said i got people coming with me). I was enough to fight against them. So on that day, i went down to "ABC" place and fought 2 vs 1. I won cause i punched her brother hard till he beg me to stop. The other person did light damage to me. Guess he was a nice guy and thought that a 2 vs 1 was unfair. So technically i would go for the leader first, which i did. And won. From there on, Y left me alone. Hopefully that Y won't come back begging to me again. 

Why did you even steady with Y if you don't want her back?

Simple, I was stupid at that time and went to agreed to steady with her. So from there on, we went on and on and on. 

So what are your plans now?

Well simple. Game and Game and Game. There is nothing for me to do now. Except to game. There's this one person which i mention before somewhere in my previous post which is : "http://raufnikololi.blogspot.sg/2012/03/this-is-for-her.html"  Why do i game so much? I dont remember replying to her that. Well simply to say, I am bored of my life and there is nothing for me to do here. I have been hurt and hurt and hurt a lot of times. I started to care for a certain someone which i truly love. Well finally someone who i really love. I don't know how it happened i got hurt a lot because of it. Love hurts i know. But because i keep hurting myself, i chose to absorb the pain and just move on thinking that its just short crush and continue gaming. I really don't know anything about love. Well because of that also i am shy to continue it. Some of you might say its wasted. Well i say its regret. Regret that i let my shyness took over myself. Regret that i wish i could restart it all over again. Regret because its regret. 

I dont want to name anyone here. Cause i dont want to hurt them

too tired of life.

i regret everything and want to start  it all over again. 

when all hope is lost, game on.