I dont know how much more pain i can handle.

Today was one of the worse day of my life. Me and my friends planned to meet at our friend house at 1. After i ended school, i called my bro. Asking him to help me to give come clues to her. We joked and joked till i arrived at my friend house. When i arrived i waked my friend up. Shortly after she came. She didnt came alone. But with her boyfriend. I was shocked. Really shocked. My heart felt as though it has broken into many pieces, unable to fix it back. I immediately whatsapp my bro. This is our convo:

Me: "Dont need help liao"
Me: " She got bf liao."
Him: " Want cry bo?"
Me: " I want cry but cannot cry here."
Him:  " Call me asap."

After i called him, he asked me to wait for him at the bus stop since he is on the way to our friend house. After i went to fetch my friend, we went to our friend house where when we reached there. Both her and her boyfriend went off. Shortly after i received a message from her which brought me to tears.

Her: "Rauf, i know you like me. But i dont. I always wanted to tell you buy cannot bring myself to say it. Sorry."

When i received that message i broke down. I literary broke. At that moment i couldn't hold on my tears. I cried on the spot. I couldnt take it. Sigh. Why does this always happens to me? Why do people keep using me or playing around with me. Hey, i am human too. I have feelings. I just want to feel loved again. Something i lost ages ago. The sense to feel love. Thats why sometimes i am emotionless. I repeat events when i pass by some places its because i store all those memories. Not because i am bored. Memories is what keeps me going on and on.